Rewind.

I was amnesic after the accident. I only remembered what I...

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 02:50:00 -0400

I was amnesic after the accident. I only remembered what I wanted to do most: Screen print. Though at the moment it’s the most painful and labour intensive process, I wanted to get back into the swing of things. Accident or not, painful or not, I know now why I love this medium so much. I’ve lived in my own world for the past year and today was the first time I felt…like me (sorta). Just me at the studio. Getting lost in the process…

Keep posted for the final(s) pieces.

Little DIY’s.

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 01:22:22 -0400

Little DIY’s.

This, they don’t teach you at school. T

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 18:41:00 -0400

This, they don’t teach you at school.

I just like being aware

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 02:12:12 -0400

I just like being aware

How come nobody is happy? Ok, maybe not everyone but after a deep conversation with two friends, my...

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 01:48:00 -0400

How come nobody is happy?

Ok, maybe not everyone but after a deep conversation with two friends, my spidy senses left me thinking.

Everyone I know is running like a headless dog doing adults things. You know the regular shit. Providing, getting an education, being socially informed and blah blah blah! You catch my drift. I’m not being offensive in no shape or form. Let me make that clear, I’m not being insolent. At all. It just seems like there is such a big gap between my social circle (after all I can only speak from personal experiences). There are the ones who are caught up and the ones who are looking to get caught up. I just don’t feel as though no one is genuinely happy though.

Slowly coming out of hibernation and catching up with friends and somehow it all seems inauthentic. Everyones tired of this and that. This party and that crowd. Their job or confused about their passion(s). I’m not excluding myself out of this category either. I, too feel some of that in between shitty shit. It this a quarter life crisis?

Correct me if I’m wrong, please but are you happy? Like legit contentment.

This was a starting point of an idea I had regarding censorship...

Thu, 30 May 2013 01:49:00 -0400

This was a starting point of an idea I had regarding censorship and inexpressiveness. People bite their tongues. They choose to keep their feelings inside because of how they will be perceived. Weak, impolite or just plain rude. This special project was from exactly a year ago. It’s absurd how fast time passes by, like what? This was a year ago!?

The whole point of this was to say ‘Fuck It’. These are just adjectives that help us express our mood, thoughts and emotional bruises. Don’t get me wrong, do not use them for the sake of inappropriateness but do feel ok for expressing yourself from time to time.

They are screen printed (1 of 1) on vintage pages of a book I found years ago. The juxtaposition of such delicate and classic photographs sprinkled in with some nasty, bold words and minimalistic illustrations is just ‘oh, so perfect’!

I’m going to continue this project, I have a lot, and by a lot I mean a lot, of steam I need to let out.

To feel. What a strange sense of awareness. To utterly feel,...

Tue, 28 May 2013 00:28:00 -0400

To feel. What a strange sense of awareness. To utterly feel, ultimately is understanding the verb, but to genuinely have your mind set programmed to gratitude is another ball game.

Simple tasks are a blessing. Writing this post, even though I’m in a shit load of physical pain, still means I’m alive. I’m able to be here. Right now. In the moment. The time you took to open your browser, the tea you made earlier and the little steps you took to go to the washroom, those are moments to appreciate. Because a little less than a year ago I wouldn’t have been able to do any of those things.

Which brings me here: I was told to write down how I feel. Keep track of my thoughts, document this journey and to help improve my memory. But most importantly to step outside of the box and measure my progress. I’m just going with the flow, counting my daily blessings and resting as much as I can. Trying to feel alive. Really…trying.

Sad little man is perplexed. It’s ok, I am too. T

Fri, 24 May 2013 01:24:00 -0400

Sad little man is perplexed. It’s ok, I am too.

I made this one a while back for a friend. The odd man out, but...

Tue, 21 May 2013 18:26:28 -0400

I made this one a while back for a friend. The odd man out, but of course I couldn’t forget his smokes and red toque.

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I haven’t really shared my reasons of disappearance on...

Sun, 19 May 2013 23:22:00 -0400

I haven’t really shared my reasons of disappeara nce on this blog yet. I’m still searching for the best ways of sharing that. If you follow me on instagram you may have an idea as to what I’m referring to. Life took a tremendous turn on me, an uncalled, unplanned and fatal turn. A complete 360.

Though this is an effortless tattoo it is perhaps the most meaningful one to date. The newest edition to my ink family. An arrow that has been stripped down to the simplest form. I chose to share this on my illustration blog not for its visual graphic, not because I drew it but mostly because of the content. A topic that has become close and dear to my heart. A topic that I am struggling with daily. Waking up every morning and dealing with depression, as a result of this 360 turn.

I needed a daily reminder. Something to let me know that shit will get better. That this loop hole is temporary. And that one day, somehow, I will be going only up from here.

We’ve all had experiences where we’ve dealt with...

Tue, 14 May 2013 20:27:00 -0400

We’ve all had experiences where we’ve dealt with unrealistic expectations even with the knowledge of failure. This one is titled #selfie.

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Things can get pretty weird in my head and I embrace it to its...

Tue, 14 May 2013 20:13:00 -0400

Things can get pretty weird in my head and I embrace it to its full potential. I decided to turn a drawing into some 3D work. End result is this tiny foot sculpture I did a while back.

Please excuse the poor photo quality.

I was a fan of Kendrick Lamar as soon as I heard Section 80 but...

Mon, 13 May 2013 22:51:00 -0400

I was a fan of Kendrick Lamar as soon as I heard Section 80 but I was in hardcore rehab when Good Kid M.A.A.D City was released so I never had time to take a good listen. About two months ago I finally got the album and Kendrick never fails me. Ever. I understand the hype with this album. Listening to his music is truly empowering. He tells his life story so vividly and reveals his vulnerabilities with no shame. A characteristic I truly find attractive.

I find I have this song on repeat the most often. He dabbles on peer pressure and drinking on this one. Take a listen.

Destination: No where.

Mon, 13 May 2013 22:19:00 -0400

Destination: No where.

ugh.. I’ve been searching for words other than creative...

Mon, 13 May 2013 00:36:00 -0400

ugh..

I’ve been searching for words other than creative block to illustrate (no pun intended) my current creative mental state. There was a period of time in which I felt extremely inspired, but I wasn’t physically capable of creating. These tiny little stems grew out a bit and despite all the physical bullshit I’ve been going through for the past 10 months I hit a point where the physical pain became a little more manageable. And then came “the now”. I’m stuck and I feel betrayed by my own passion. There are no branches and I feel like the stems are beginning to dry up. I feel like shit.

Try to fall in love with the process; the end result is just...

Sat, 11 May 2013 01:21:59 -0400

Try to fall in love with the process; the end result is just that – the end. Attempting to fit this philosophy into your everyday life and it’s not as easily apprehended.

Think of your life as a really big book. Different characters that paint your life through various pages. There’s always a climax in the story. There is always a turning point, a moment of clarity and realization amongst all the chaos. You read page after page as you anticipate the ending. Suddenly you are at the end and you get that feeling at the pit of your stomach - yearning. That feeling of “wtf, how did it all end so fast?”

Try to fall in love with the process. That’s where the magic happens whether the book is a short story or a big novel. Flip through the pages with complete tranquility. Be in control of the now, you will get where you need to be. Trust the pages. Don’t rush.

This has been on my mind for a few years now. The concept of...

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 23:56:00 -0400

This has been on my mind for a few years now. The concept of Love vs.Lust; what separates them and how one can differentiate between the two feelings. It’s a catch 22 or a win-win situation. You either know where you stand or you’re, well…Lost. It’s no surprise that this topic comes up usually when I’m intoxicated on a night out. The answer is still pending. Everyone views the topic differently. What are your thoughts? I’d love to hear them.

LOVE VS. LUST VS. LOST.
email: write@bonblivious.com

Finally cleaned out my desk/studio work space.

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 21:41:30 -0400

Finally cleaned out my desk/studio work space.

Listen to yourself.

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 13:37:32 -0400

Listen to yourself.

Daily doodle with a little Adobe experiment. It’s hard...

Fri, 15 Mar 2013 23:52:25 -0400

Daily doodle with a little Adobe experiment. It’s hard having to relearn what you already know.