I haven’t really shared my reasons of disappearance on this blog yet. I’m still searching for the best ways of sharing that. If you follow me on instagram you may have an idea as to what I’m referring to. Life took a tremendous turn on me, an uncalled, unplanned and fatal turn. A complete 360.
Though this is an effortless tattoo it is perhaps the most meaningful one to date. The newest edition to my ink family. An arrow that has been stripped down to the simplest form. I chose to share this on my illustration blog not for its visual graphic, not because I drew it but mostly because of the content. A topic that has become close and dear to my heart. A topic that I am struggling with daily. Waking up every morning and dealing with depression, as a result of this 360 turn.
I needed a daily reminder. Something to let me know that shit will get better. That this loop hole is temporary. And that one day, somehow, I will be going only up from here.
T
• 19 May 2013 • 4 notes
We’ve all had experiences where we’ve dealt with unrealistic expectations even with the knowledge of failure. This one is titled #selfie.
T
• 14 May 2013 • 3 notes
Things can get pretty weird in my head and I embrace it to its full potential. I decided to turn a drawing into some 3D work. End result is this tiny foot sculpture I did a while back.
Please excuse the poor photo quality.
T
• 14 May 2013 • 1 note
I was a fan of Kendrick Lamar as soon as I heard Section 80 but I was in hardcore rehab when Good Kid M.A.A.D City was released so I never had time to take a good listen. About two months ago I finally got the album and Kendrick never fails me. Ever. I understand the hype with this album. Listening to his music is truly empowering. He tells his life story so vividly and reveals his vulnerabilities with no shame. A characteristic I truly find attractive.
I find I have this song on repeat the most often. He dabbles on peer pressure and drinking on this one. Take a listen.
T
• 13 May 2013 • 2 notes
ugh..
I’ve been searching for words other than creative block to illustrate (no pun intended) my current creative mental state. There was a period of time in which I felt extremely inspired, but I wasn’t physically capable of creating. These tiny little stems grew out a bit and despite all the physical bullshit I’ve been going through for the past 10 months I hit a point where the physical pain became a little more manageable. And then came “the now”. I’m stuck and I feel betrayed by my own passion. There are no branches and I feel like the stems are beginning to dry up. I feel like shit.
T
• 13 May 2013 • 2 notes
Try to fall in love with the process; the end result is just that – the end. Attempting to fit this philosophy into your everyday life and it’s not as easily apprehended.
Think of your life as a really big book. Different characters that paint your life through various pages. There’s always a climax in the story. There is always a turning point, a moment of clarity and realization amongst all the chaos. You read page after page as you anticipate the ending. Suddenly you are at the end and you get that feeling at the pit of your stomach - yearning. That feeling of “wtf, how did it all end so fast?”
Try to fall in love with the process. That’s where the magic happens whether the book is a short story or a big novel. Flip through the pages with complete tranquility. Be in control of the now, you will get where you need to be. Trust the pages. Don’t rush.
T
• 11 May 2013
This has been on my mind for a few years now. The concept of Love vs.Lust; what separates them and how one can differentiate between the two feelings. It’s a catch 22 or a win-win situation. You either know where you stand or you’re, well…Lost. It’s no surprise that this topic comes up usually when I’m intoxicated on a night out. The answer is still pending. Everyone views the topic differently. What are your thoughts? I’d love to hear them.
LOVE VS. LUST VS. LOST.
email: write@bonblivious.com
• 12 April 2013 • 5 notes
Finally cleaned out my desk/studio work space.
• 24 March 2013 • 6 notes
